Let me just start by saying this: Today was the first day of swimming laps on my weight loss journey...tomorrow I will do low impact water aerobics for 45 minutes and hopefully, I'll be able to walk out to my car afterward! Pain...yes, pain. I only swam 12 laps because that's all my joints would allow me to do....I'm in so much pain right now....shoulders and knees...."holy crap!" As Frank would say on Everybody Loves Raymond! (Yes, I still watch the reruns...too much like John's family not to!) Anyhoo, I think I may have to take some pain killers just to be able to do this....Isn't that freakin' pathetic?? Oh well, soon the knees will be replaced and I'll be able to walk again without cringing with every step.
The positives: It felt FANTASTIC in the pool swimming today. Being in the water is such a relaxing way to gather my thoughts and focus on the task at hand. And swimming isn't like running laps or miles...at least for me it isn't....when I was able to run, I'd be counting down and thinking "I can't wait to get this finished!" When I'm swimming, I don't feel that way at all. I love swimming....everything about it. The soft glide of the silky water over my skin, the feeling of weightlessness, the feel of the parting of the water with the tips of my fingers as I push my way through to the next stroke. I LOVE IT. Then, I get out. Holy shit! That's when my knees scream "Beeeaaatch, you still fat and we still worn da hell down!" And then, I'm back to my reality. The reality that I still have to waddle my way the length of the building and to the parking lot to my car. I'd say, it's pretty bad when you dread the walk to the car and NOT the actual work out! But, that's the way it is. I've done this to myself. Well, weight wise I have. I had no control over the RA and the Osteo. That evidently was inherited from one of my Mom's poor cousins who had juvenile onset RA. I can't even imagine that horror. And that was back in the days before they had meds for it. I just shudder to think what that kind of pain would have been like without any meds to counteract the symptoms and the pain...and she was a young kid! Like 6 or 7... Makes me sick. It also makes me thankful for the medical advances we have today and the fact that I'm benefiting from them!
When I graduated from high school in 1985, I was 5'91/2". I loved being tall! Everything about it! This summer when they measured my height again right before the hysterectomy, I was 5'6". I kid you not. I can't get over it. I knew I was shorter...because I can't reach the top shelves anymore, my sister is taller than me now, and John is taller than me. I've always been taller...it's just such a shock to my system. My knees and my spine have deteriorated to the point that I've lost 3 and a half inches in height???? REALLY???? Unbefreakingleavable. That is called an "infix" by the way. Anytime you insert a word inside another word, it's called an infix...yes, I know I've talked about this before, but some of you may not have read that post all those months ago...and everyone should know how to use an infix. Especially when you're good and upset!!! Then they just seem to fly off of the tongue without any problems whatsoever!!
For tonight's supper, I've made homemade Turkey Vegetable Soup using 50% less sodium beef broth, ground turkey, purple cauliflower, tomatoes, onions, celery, carrots, corn, peas, celery and various herbs. It smells fantastic! I hope it's as good as my actual Beef Vegetable Soup...because today's is a much healthier version that John and I both need! I'll let ya know how it turns out!
I'd like to talk about our St. Louis Cardinals. They didn't win the pennant last night...the SF Giants did...which means they won't be going to the World Series as you all well know. However, as all TRUE Cardinals fans do...I'm already looking forward to next season! And as I said last night...congrats to the Giants! The World Series won't be as exciting to watch without them, but it's baseball and ya gotta love baseball no matter who is playing!! :)
For those of you who read this blog, I'd like for you to sign up on FB on my Bitch Slap Cancer page. I think some people have not signed up to be a member of it because of the title. I feel kinda bad about that, but I'm not going to change the name. Bitch slapping cancer is exactly the mentality we all need to have for those of us who are living through it...I told a close friend of mine recently that I'm trying very hard not to be scared shitless about my next 3 month check up in November. At first, I thought that every three months was a good thing...now, all I do is worry that Dr. Carlson is going to find that it has started to grow again. I wake up sick to my stomach about it at night. I've never been a worrier...ever. I deal with things as they come, so this constant fear that I have about this ridiculous disease is really bothering me. I pray, I meditate, I'm getting healthy again. I also pray for all of my friends and family...I'm asking that you all continue to pray and send positive vibes for both John and myself! Every little bit helps, right?? Okay, enough of that! Time to go stir that soup!!
Ciao! Love and Hugs,
Carolinn:)
The positives: It felt FANTASTIC in the pool swimming today. Being in the water is such a relaxing way to gather my thoughts and focus on the task at hand. And swimming isn't like running laps or miles...at least for me it isn't....when I was able to run, I'd be counting down and thinking "I can't wait to get this finished!" When I'm swimming, I don't feel that way at all. I love swimming....everything about it. The soft glide of the silky water over my skin, the feeling of weightlessness, the feel of the parting of the water with the tips of my fingers as I push my way through to the next stroke. I LOVE IT. Then, I get out. Holy shit! That's when my knees scream "Beeeaaatch, you still fat and we still worn da hell down!" And then, I'm back to my reality. The reality that I still have to waddle my way the length of the building and to the parking lot to my car. I'd say, it's pretty bad when you dread the walk to the car and NOT the actual work out! But, that's the way it is. I've done this to myself. Well, weight wise I have. I had no control over the RA and the Osteo. That evidently was inherited from one of my Mom's poor cousins who had juvenile onset RA. I can't even imagine that horror. And that was back in the days before they had meds for it. I just shudder to think what that kind of pain would have been like without any meds to counteract the symptoms and the pain...and she was a young kid! Like 6 or 7... Makes me sick. It also makes me thankful for the medical advances we have today and the fact that I'm benefiting from them!
When I graduated from high school in 1985, I was 5'91/2". I loved being tall! Everything about it! This summer when they measured my height again right before the hysterectomy, I was 5'6". I kid you not. I can't get over it. I knew I was shorter...because I can't reach the top shelves anymore, my sister is taller than me now, and John is taller than me. I've always been taller...it's just such a shock to my system. My knees and my spine have deteriorated to the point that I've lost 3 and a half inches in height???? REALLY???? Unbefreakingleavable. That is called an "infix" by the way. Anytime you insert a word inside another word, it's called an infix...yes, I know I've talked about this before, but some of you may not have read that post all those months ago...and everyone should know how to use an infix. Especially when you're good and upset!!! Then they just seem to fly off of the tongue without any problems whatsoever!!
For tonight's supper, I've made homemade Turkey Vegetable Soup using 50% less sodium beef broth, ground turkey, purple cauliflower, tomatoes, onions, celery, carrots, corn, peas, celery and various herbs. It smells fantastic! I hope it's as good as my actual Beef Vegetable Soup...because today's is a much healthier version that John and I both need! I'll let ya know how it turns out!
I'd like to talk about our St. Louis Cardinals. They didn't win the pennant last night...the SF Giants did...which means they won't be going to the World Series as you all well know. However, as all TRUE Cardinals fans do...I'm already looking forward to next season! And as I said last night...congrats to the Giants! The World Series won't be as exciting to watch without them, but it's baseball and ya gotta love baseball no matter who is playing!! :)
For those of you who read this blog, I'd like for you to sign up on FB on my Bitch Slap Cancer page. I think some people have not signed up to be a member of it because of the title. I feel kinda bad about that, but I'm not going to change the name. Bitch slapping cancer is exactly the mentality we all need to have for those of us who are living through it...I told a close friend of mine recently that I'm trying very hard not to be scared shitless about my next 3 month check up in November. At first, I thought that every three months was a good thing...now, all I do is worry that Dr. Carlson is going to find that it has started to grow again. I wake up sick to my stomach about it at night. I've never been a worrier...ever. I deal with things as they come, so this constant fear that I have about this ridiculous disease is really bothering me. I pray, I meditate, I'm getting healthy again. I also pray for all of my friends and family...I'm asking that you all continue to pray and send positive vibes for both John and myself! Every little bit helps, right?? Okay, enough of that! Time to go stir that soup!!
Ciao! Love and Hugs,
Carolinn:)
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