Family...the good and the bad.

This is when I think about the fact that we don't have children. I sometimes wonder what kind of parents we would have been. I think I know, but then again...you never really know about people's parenting skills until they have them. I know what I wouldn't do...I saw it every day for the 17 years that I've taught. I saw the great parents too, and I admired them for what they were and are able to accomplish with their children.

Which brings me to my mom. She is a wonderful person who still makes things better for me when I'm bumming or just need to talk. She's smart, compassionate and had the patience of Job when we were growing up. Dad worked long days in St. Louis, not to mention the drive, to support us and Mom took care of EVERYTHING else. I have to say that we've always had a special connection and I can't put into words in this silly blog what I truly feel for and about her. She's always been my guide, guardian and the little voice in my head that would say "Carolinn Jane, you better rethink this one." When I see her after not seeing her for a couple of months, I immediately get this rush of warmth and security that floods my mind and body. She's my inspiration to be a better person, a thoughtful person, a loving, caring person. This Thanksgiving, I'm thankful for my mom and all that she has taught me about being a worthwhile human being. Now, can I follow her lead at this time when I'm feeling so crappy about things? Can I let her positive influence cancel out the bullshit I've been hit with this morning? We'll see just how good of a person I truly am. In the singing voice of my Mom, "Straighten up and fly right!" Mom's 82 years old and the wisest, sweetest person I've ever known. I love you, Mom.